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Saturday, July 30, 2011

class reunion

My 20 year reunion is supposed to be next weekend.  Only I can't go.  It turns out my real life is getting the way of my former life.  Which got me thinking why do i want to go.  I had a good time in high school, but I was also a complete and utter social failure.  Which may or may not be an exaggeration, but here is my test, i never had a girl friend in high school, i never went on a date. 

I would have done anything, to be good enough to have had a girlfriend in high school.  Well that is anything but ask a girl out.  That is pure lunacy. I realize the errors of my thinking, but it can't change it.

I don't really care what most of the people are doing, I have a few friends i would like to have a reason to visit.  I like to visit where I am from and since my family is no longer there, it is highly unlikely I have reason to get back.  But at the same time, I want to visit.

I have no desire to see the girls the either rebuffed me, wouldn't talk to me or completely terrified me.  It isn't that I don't want to see them, but to me in my head they're who they were not who they are, so I guess, I have memories of a time, that is gone, and there is no going back.  It isn't that i don't want to see them either, it is just I don't get those shows like high school reunion on vh1. 

I don't want to go back and reunite with people, who mostly through my own cowardice, remind me of the time in my life, when I was full of potential yet failing everyday to do the  only thing that mattered.

I also want to go, cause I have a smoking hot wife.  I can think of a few people that I would really like to see just to say, ha my wife is hotter than your wife, but that is probably not good want to have.  I don't want to see people to think, man it sucks to be you, or I make more money than you, or anything like.  I just would like to see where some people have ended up.

Facebook has cleared that up for some people, but for a lot of people that isn't the case at all.

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

the world bites

You ever have one of those days when you wake up and everything seems to be wrong.  That was me today, I woke up got out of bed and was angry for no good reason.  Went to work was all frustrated and irritated by the world as a whole.

The people that talked to me, i kept thinking things like, has the little guy that runs the damn on the crazy river opened the flood gates wide?  At my lunch, and about 1/2 through lunch it just hit me, it isn't the world that is wrong today, it is me

Also when i got back to my desk i was all sweaty and dizzy, and sleepy.  So i took the afternoon off sick, came home had a nap, at a banana, and now, I feeling much much better, I just have to figure out how to apologize to those I crossed paths with.

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

things my daughter says

The other day, my daughter left her plate at the coffee table with four pieces of cheese on it. A piece of the cheese was mysteriously missing when she returned.  She was mad that her cheese was missing.  She says, "Don't eat my Chee!"  It was amoung the funniest things ever.

So the point in time has happened when really the only thing i have to write about is my daughter.  I get to go to work, come home and play with her. So if i am going to write anything it is going to be about how funny she is, cause tax work is rather boring to accountants, i am guessing it would drive other completely nuts.

Anyway, I like Chee.

Sunday, July 17, 2011


This is what I have been thinking of late.  Kids grow up entirely too fast. I am entirely too fat, and when I was a kid summers seemed to be endless.

It is already nearing the end of July, I mean it is middle, but after the next work week it'll be towards then end.  If i were god for a day, I would add some more summer to summer, perhaps even go to a 5 season cycle, we could have, Autum, Winter, Spring, Summer, and Summerer.  That would be sweet  add a whole month right in the middle called Juvember, also my new month is going to have 31 days too, none of that short month business, July Juvember and August are all having 31 days, in  a row :-)

I was at Target yesterday and noticed all the back to school supplies are out.  That is insane.   Also, I saw a list of what you have to equip a kid with to send them to school these days, sheesh, You need fewer supplies to plan you ascent of Mount Kilamanjaro, and likely less money too.  When did the tricks of linear algebra become so expensive?

My daughter is 2 and less than a half and more than a 1/4 so, I suppose she is like 2 and 3/8 but who says that. Which got me to thinking about the expression "a fraction of" More specifically it was the knuckleheads on the radio lamenting that people's 401k are a fraction of what they used to be, but come to us and i'll guarantee you'll never lose a cent again.  Which drives me nuts but never mind that, what i was thinking of is the a fraction of what they used to be, can't everything be expressed as a fraction, i mean if i had 15/10 of what i used to have that would be a good thing wouldn't it.  I know that you're not supposed to mix numbers like that, but your not supposed to make promises that are untrue either, so that is my thought on that.

I also been thinking, I am so glad I do not have to date anymore or ever again.   A woman i work with is trying her hand at dating and it seems there are some damaged broken crazy ass people running around the midlife single market. Also I married way way way way over my head.  So i got that going for me

Entirely unrealted, but it has been bugging me, letting go of the past seems to be both equally good, and equallly bad.  I mean you can't spent your days sitting around lamenting about could have been or should have done, but you can't live your life without reflection, otherwise, you'll end up saying thinks like that always happens to me.  Which is you dont' learn from the past, that will be the case, but if you dwell, you'll not move forward either, life can be tricky business.

I had planned to try to get into shape this summer, but everytime i start i work out like 3 days then something comes up i miss a day and i don't get back to it for a week or so, which completely busts the momentum i had started, urgh, why is there such a difference between what is good for you and what is easy.

That is all i got for today.

Monday, July 4, 2011

4th of July

I was talking to some people at the office, and around my office, there are only 2 of maybe 35 people that have tattooes, well 2 that i know of, i suppose there maybe more, and actually I think it is likely 2 dudes have them but I dont' know about it.  They're both ex army dudes, army dudes seem to like them.

I realize it is likely a me problem as lots of folks have them now, but I really can't think of anything I want on me permanently.  Not that I have a fear of permanence or anything but have you seen those dudes, and by dudes I mean both mean and women that are all sleaved up.  With tats everywhere?  Does that say anything other than, what i put on my body isn't all that important and I do not want to be taken seriously.

A few days ago I heard about a study, This study showed that defendants found guilty faced harsher sentencing if they had tattoos the judge and/or jury could see in the trial.  I have no idea if this was true or not, or if it was a coincidence, as in, most of the cats with neck tats in the survey had prior convictions, and stuff and there for deserved harsher sentencing, or if the study was controlled for that. But it makes me think, fashion should not be perm. and it shouldn't get you more jail time.

Which finally brings me to my point, i heard someone talking about Labrone James and comparing his marketing to that of tiger woods and jordan. Despite the obvious differences in that woods and jordan have won a lot of titles, they also despite rather huge personality problems. Jordan gambles a lot, and Woods knows all to well how to stick it in the hole.  I mean isn't that perfect, the dude who dominates golf, has like 20 mistresses.   but that is neither here nor there, what this piece was focusing on was the marketability.  I think that James marketability suffers a great deal by his having oodles of tats.

And dude is like 24, what do you do when you hit like 30 and finally the important stuff has happened in your life, you have a wife and kids, but you're already sleaved, can you get tat redos?  That is a serious question?

Anyway, I you get a tat, that is fine, get 2 that is likely also fine, but get 65 and they are on your hands, well, just know that I am not going to trust you, and i am not going to take anything you ahve to say seriously. Until I get to know you, then you can overcome this, but most people i see like that I do not get to know.