sometimes I think it is a sin

This video is just the album cover with the song added. Anyway, this is my new theme of the day


Anyway, Sometimes i think its a shame when i get feeling guilty when I am feeling no pain, for some reason that song is on a loop in my noodle.

Anyway,  I had myself, a mr. mom kind of mom.  Remember that flick, if you do say you don't so you don't date yourself, but if you don't you should watch it cause it is funny.



Any when the wife got herself  a new job and i applied for a job with in the agency i work for and i got an interview for the very first one i applied for i got thinking, this is going to be quick and easy.  I didn't get that job likely cause, they had somone in mind cause that is how the government works.

Yesterday, i was sitting around thinking I don't get to see Mariah's Halloween this just plain sucks, I was wearing the same stuff i was wearing to sleep in and I got feeling bad for my self.

Then yesterday perhaps as a sign I got a letter from the Wounded Warriors Project.  Addressed to Jerry I need some Karma DuBois.  Which there is a reason for that, but that maybe a post for a different day. Anyway reading the flyer saying they need some cash to help wounded veterans made me think.  I am one lucky fellow, healthy daughter, spectacular wife, and on top of that me being the absolute pinnacle of evolutionary progress, never before in the history of human kind has there been a combination of dna that has resulted in this level of awesomeness.

That last bit may be an exaggeration, but i am healthy and forty, my daughter is healthy, my wife and i both have pretty sweet gigs.

I am going to not feel bad that i am missing a halloween, i have a ticket to visit for thanksgiving, i am going to take 9 days leave at Christmas, if i haven't been out there, i will visit  sometime in early Feb, and i will go for her birthday, all if i am not transferred yet. But I should be transferred, that puts my request at 8 months. The lady coordinating the efforts, that is her job helping get folks transferred.  Anyway she didn't think it would take to long since i am trying to get to DC.

In the  mean time, i am going to see if i can find a guitar to practice with, and start guitar lessons again, i am going to really focus on lossing some weight.  Weirdly i had been both exercising and dieting mixed in with a lot of pity party basically binging.

So back on the diet I go.

and be thankful for what you have!!!!

please make it stop

In this case, i am referring to the endless steam of political ads.  Whoever changes their mind based on ads should be slapped up side the head, they're all lies, half truths and manipulations.

Anyway, but apparently they do work, as to the debates, which is odd to me too, how you could support obama for example then switch your vote to romney based on the debate is lost on me,  does that mean you just don't pay attention? and if you're not paying attention why do the debates effect you?

Anyway never mind that, I just wanted to make a prediction and have it documented somewhere.

Remember like 2 years ago, when mitch mcconnell said the number one priority of the GOP in the senate was to ensure that Obama is a one term president?

If Romney wins, it will be the DEMS turn to do that, and the best way to accomplish that is to ensure that Romney lies about everything he says he'll do and force us in to a recession.  Which isn't hard to do this time, since the bush tax cuts set to expire in January.

This is what Jerry thinks happens,  if Obama wins the tax cuts will get extended because there will be interest on both sides to ensure the taxes aren't raised. The GOP doesn't want to raise them, and the DEMS will give something up to get something they want.

If the Romeny wins, the democrats will entrench themselves in the senate and say, either raise taxes on the rich like Obama suggested or we're going to let the whole thing expire.

Anyway that is what i think will happen.


 

sunday morning

I suppose it is morning as i went to bed and got back up, but now it is not morning in that i don't suppose I should stay up that is crazy talk.

I got a call from my daughter today, asking me how come she doesn't get to play with me :( Man i hope this transfer comes through soon, this is starting to physically hurt.

I am finished with the presidential election.  I wish that would get over too.

I have read most of that 50 shades of gray book, that is straight up porn.

I want to learn to play guitar, i need to look into a class or lessons or something in alexandria.

I to see a good movie has anyone seen one?

Also and only a little bit unrelated, I am reading catch 22, slowly, but i am reading it,   There are more whores, and debautchery in that book then i would have surmised.  I don't think a book like that would be as welcome in schools today.  Which is kind of a bad thing, there are lots of books that schools probably shy away from just to avoid controversy.

On the other hand, I also don't think whores, or the solicitation and use of the services is a wide spread as it used to be.  Maybe I am just nieve, but I think i am right, at least in the US and that has to be a good thing right?

Also the book has some I think purposefully racist parts.  As we have a black president, at least for the time being, that makes me proud of us as a country.  We've come  along way in 50 years,  we got a long way left to go but never mind that.

I am thinking about the election and the book and the coverage of the races, and both campaigns seem to be hammering home the notion that we can return to greatness or whatever,  I argue, has it ever truely left.  I dont' want to take america back to where it was!

Sure lower unemployment would be nice, and lower incariration rates would be good, and getting rid of the death penatly would be nice, but I don't want to go back to the days of old.  Well i guess I would like to fit into skinny jeans.

I would also like to point out i don't want to wear them i would just like to be able to.

reuinted and it felt so good

So i visited the family last week, from Thursday to Tuesday anyway so a five day visit, which was exactly what i needed to improve my disposition.

I had grown weary of living in my condo without my daughter here.  She makes me smile.

Anyway, as i was planning to do something rash like quit my job and go back to public accounting in order to get there quickly it occurred to me that is crazy talk.  In five years when she is playing soccer, and having dance recitals and plotting to take over the world, I don't want to miss that because it is tax season.

So i visited and had a grand old time, saw the Giant Pandas and the Red Pandas at the zoo.

Which also made me a little sad.  The Denver Zoo has one red panda, and he is always sleeping, I have visited teh zoo at least 50 times in the past 2 years, and I've never seen him running about.

I have visited the national zoo twice, and the second time I saw the pair of red pandas playing.

the Denver zoo needs to either get another red panda or give up the one the have.  I realize this is over simplistic and maybe even wrong, as some animals like to be alone except for when nature calls and there are red panda romances a brewing, but just on the surface it was sad.

home is where the heart is

As it turns out I love Colorado,  I have lived in (mostly) Utah, New Mexico, Montana (as a wee lad), Ohio, Florida, Illinois.  I love it here, I didn't like any of the other places as much.  I love the weather in Utah and Colorado, but Colorado doesn't come with the people that seem to mind whether or not you're be joining them for our oppressive cult like church services.  Not that I think the Mormons are a cult anymore than I think scientology, the Witnesses, the Shiks or any other religion is.  I just hate the culture the mormons, and likely anyone who has that strong a majority has.  While in Utah you're either part of that gang, or you're from the wrong side of the tracks.

Anyway, since my wife and daughter moved I have no desire to be here. I want to move to Virginia too.

Also some friends took me  out to eat this weekend, as I am leaving town, I have a beer or too, and way to much food, and I am right back to 197.  Aurgh.

Turns out the trick to losing weight is not eating out.  Who knew, well that and exercise.

This was Barr Lake on Saturday, it is notable cause while we where on the trail we where not by the lake, you can tell all that brushless treeless grass and sand, that is supposed to be lake.  There is a better than fair chance we're in the midst of a drought.   Barr Lake is just almost directly west and slightly north but not all the way north of DIA.  Judging from the planes, we were really close, it is out on the plains.

Anyway, On Thursday I get to go to see my family.  yea, i know i have a rule against telling people when i am leaving town and stuff, but well, the only thing in my condo are the appliances, and as it is a condo, i am guess the people next door may raise an eyebrow if you where to come in and take them.  There is also a couch/daybed i have been sleeping on, and this pc, but i am likely taking that to Virginia with me.

Sunday

Yesterday  around dog and I went for hike around Barr Lake, well not around as it is kinda a long hike around, we did 2 miles out 2 miles back.  It was fun, i guess, get out there and just walk with the dog, it was COLD.  The high was like 39, but we went in the afternoon, and i am sure the high had passed.   Anyway, Neil is tired today,  I think that is a good walk for him, and me too

I weighed 194.6 this morning so i got that going for me.

math problems

I was reading abby's post, and someone posted one of those obviously faked yet very funny tests, where the kids are horribly wrong and the test ends up on the internet.

you know like that above, and for some reason, i have been thinking about school a lot lately, like maybe I should get another degree, perhaps a masters in economics or a BS in math.  Something like that, If i can get transferred to DC they have programs for the federal employees to take classes up to 4 a year or something like that, but I wouldn't need much more than that and 2 or 3 years.

So this is my story back in I'll say 8th grade, perhaps it was 9th or maybe 7th, but it occurred to me, if they are going to go to the trouble of giving me a story problem, I should at least be considerate enough to give a story answer.

As you can probably imagine, the last thing a junior high math teacher, actually I think this was if she happens upon this post mrs. foust,  and if that was the case, it would have been 9th grade pre-algebra, or maybe just garden variety algebra.

This was all well and good, but it also lead me to do it in college, i still remember the phyiscs TA who was grading my test, and started laughing out loud that i answered some vector question or something about mass or something with, and answer that was something like the little guy packs more of a wallup.

Anyway, it turns out sometimes, or quite frequently I am a pain in the ass for the sake of being a pain in the ass.

Also I am almost to day 13 which will be in the morning, and i weighed in at 194.9  this morning, which is pretty good.

young love, lust, or maybe just hormones

So last night neil diamond and I are walking on a portion on the high line canal. The part that takes you right past center hills golf course and the aurora community college.  It is a kinda pretty spot all in all.  I mean it is within a guess grove, well not quite a grove, it is within a stand of cottonwood trees,  and it kinda dark, by kinda i mean really dark, i didn't even see those 2 kids until we were right on them.

Well I wasn't on anyone, neil was not on anyone, but she was on him like burnt on toast.  well at least when i cook it in a less than superior quality toaster.  I just keep walking because it was so dark that you couldn't see them until you where right next to them , once you could see them there was no denying what you saw.

Anyway, who knew that seeing some neighbors getting freaky was on the entertainment agenda for a monday evening.

one week

Technically this is the start of the second week, and well, I haven't weighed in yet. but this weekend after hiking Saturday and then being a fat lazy toad yesterday, well entirely true i worked for like 5 hours.

Today in addition to getting back onto a strict version of his diet, i need to figure out where, when to work some exercise in.

That being said lets go weigh me.

That was bad, it said, 197.  It turns out that when dieting even a one day total failure is a big deal.  Anyway, yesterday, i got into Mexican food as a place called Mescal and I had a Beer.  Both not allowed and both completely not okay.

Anyway, I miss my daughter, she called last night crying dadadadadadaddaddadaddadadadada, take a big breathe, dadadadadaddadadadadadadadada.

Working for the government is sometimes the stupidest thing.  You want to keep this job, well we're going to make you wait week, possibly months to get it.  In the mean time we expect you to keep performing your job where it was.

That makes no sense, as well, I have no motivation at all to be there, i seriously wake and dread going there, i spend all day there looking for jobs, and then i come  home and look for jobs, and lament that i am not there.

But i did sing her a twinkle twinkle and she said that was a pretty good one!  So i got that going for me